06:12:03 - 2000-12-18
Love sucks/love is over rated
Ok...I don't like BSB but yet...I still have not deleted any of their songs from my Napster collect. Why do you have BSB on Napster if you don't like them? you may be asking. Simple...Jen likes them and she put the songs there and I have yet to deleat her songs. She wants to get them scaned/burned onto a new CD and...it just complicated from there because where she is living now, there is no internet connection, I will just leave it at that.
Anyway...back to what I was going to say...I'm in this "Love sucks/love is over rated" stage right now and I'm listening to any and all depressing Love songs that I can get ahold of including BSB songs such as "Show me the Meaning of Being Lonely," "Shape of My Heart" and a few others. I would prefer *HINT IF YOU ARE SOMEONE WHO WORKS WITH 98 DEGREES* that they sang some sad love songs...I love them...SO much better then BSB.
So, I'm in this love sucks/loves over rated stage right now...and it sucks...like love (what is the irony in that). I don't think it is some much 'love' as it is being alone. Since Jen moved out, I have been alone. I have always been alone but it is worse now that Jen is not here. Also add to the fact that everyone around me has someone and I don't. It would not surprise me if my brother has a g/f now...man that is a scary thought...my little brother with a girl friend...
But honestly, having someone 'special' scares me...big. If you have been following this diary, you may be seening a pattern here...ma + lonely=depressed...or something like that. And where does all of this rambling get me? No where...
*sigh*
How should I put this...Life sucks...there, I said it, agian. I've lost count at how many times I have sad that, but it is true...Life sucks. It takes sudden turns you before you know how to react and you get screwed somehow. There is my insight for the night, be happy with it. It is not very helpful nor does it offer any advice it just states the plain simple facts...life sucks.
O.o...ok we will add this to my list of rants tonight. Just got an IM from some on Napster and that says: "Do you plays"
Play what?? He/she has not replied...so guess they are not worth talking to. I don't know about you, but there are a lot of crazies out there in cyber space and I mean A LOT!
Like this weirdo lady/guy or something was like hitting on a friend of mine with out really starting a converstation or anything...they just jumped right in on the cyber crap...*shudders* sick people.
I forgot where I was going with this...something about love sucks/love is over rated...but I don't know where so I will end this entry tonight.
~*~Dream Dancer~*~
Goodnight..
