5:12 p.m. - April 29, 2004
The theme of my life
Well, I have two weeks left of school. Next week is dead week and the week after if finals. The rest of this week and the weekend will be devoted to working on my powerpoint presentation. I have eight minutes to talk and my topic is too short so I'm back to the first topic, what makes sharks superior predators...or something like that. I still have to fine tune to the topic.
Anyway...things school wise are not the best right now. I'm looking at retaking Bio 213...I'll be lucky to scratch by with a D...another reason why I have to do well on this presentation. I'd be surprised if they profs. decided to curve the class average, but I seriously doubt it.
I've always said grades won't matter in the long run because that does not reflect the kind of person you are or your work ethic, but I'm worried that I won't even get my Disney internship next spring.
So that is part of what I'm worried about next to everything else. I'm also worried that no one will want to hire me.
I know, this sounds like a reacurring theme here but isn't this what this place is for? To have the masses read what is going on in my non-existant life?
To add to the 'joys' of everything else, because I feel completely worthless I keep putting off asking my boss about becoming a supervisor...yes...back to that again. And I know it has absoultly nothing to do with my grades or anything.
I worry about too many little things until they become big things. ugh...somedays, I wish this would all go away. It does not help that I know countless people who will be graduating this year or next fall while I'm still trying to get through my classes.
Part of my problem is I didn't send out my information for Student Lones and my parents have pretty much said we can't afford to keep giving you money...and I only ask for $250 from them to help with rent! So, I'm going to try and cut back on my 'extra' expences during the summer/semester. I'm also going to work on eating at home more often and taking my lunch to school, which is pretty difficult since lunch is just one more thing to cram into my backpake or carry with me on campus to lose. Again, why I need to get promoted.
ARG! See what i'm saying about worring too much over things? Well, I've killed enough time already. Time to go invisible and work on my report. I feel like I have done nothing 'fun' for the past three months except stay locked inside behind my books...and for what? barly scraping out passing grades.
~*~Dream Dancer~*~
