9:02 p.m. - 31 October 2005
The Bomb is going to explod
ARGH!!!
This semester keeps further going downhill every day. I'm barly keeping up. I'm loosing sleep and I'm falling asleep at work...while washing dishes, making food, taking orders, because I'm not sleeping.
With advising going on, there is added stress to the pile of crape I'm digging my way through. I have yet to view my mid-terms which have been posted for over two weeks now. Not like it will matter much. My 'advisor' will sit back in his chair, with his hands behind his head, yes 'yep, sounds good', removes my block and away I go. Doesn't matter that he's suppose to advise me or not. This is its own stress, even if I had
4.0. I'm just waiting to go in there and find out I have to take such-and-such to graduate or I have X GPA before I'm allowed to get my diploma. One of my roomys is retaking a class she failed the first time, but passed the upper divisions with As and Bs. Doesn't matter if this class was a Pass/Fail class. Just so happens, I took the class, and failed it and went on to take the upper divisons.
So yeah...school is not going great at all. The two classes I wanted to take, I'm failing because I spend so much freaking time on Chem that I don't study for them then turn around and fail their tests. For example...my ecology test. I've never before had the lowet grade in class, but I managed with this test. This means, if I even want to see a passing grade, I need a B or A on my next two tests, including the final for that class. No pressure there.
Things got so bad today/this week, I did not do an assigment for my chem lab, then had the TA asking me all 3 hours where it was. Just before leaving class she stopped me and told me stop by her office (I don't know where it is, how to even e-mail her, let alone have patients to go and get the help I know and she knows I need.) Mind you, this is the same lab that reminds me oh so much of Harry Potter.
All you Harry Potter nay-sayers who think HP has NOTHING to do with real life...take a chem class, then you'll know why Harry hates Potions so much. Yes, I've had to redo my 'Potions' experiments one or twice at lest every lab, AND turn in a sample. Two excellent examples of how Harry Potter relates to real life.
Ok...that was a tagent, but I can garentee JK Rowling did not have to seek to far into her imagination to come up with a worse class like Potions for poor Harry to take.
Right now, I'm taking a break from (surprise surprise) Chemistry, and trying to get rid of this stress headach I've had since I left lab at 4:30 this afternoon. At the time of this entry, it is 9:00 pm.
In my state of stressfulness, I went to work and talked to my manager about my work schedule. Mostly along the lines of moving hours around to open up more of the week for me. It is a start and if I can get caught back up, maybe go back to where things currently are. I told her it was better then just flat out saying 'see-ya' and she agreed with that. And we worked something out for the rest of this week. I was schulded 27-28 hours, and last week was 26-27.
I thought I could make it to the week of the 14th in November, when I took a week off to do Disney rep stuff but clearly I couldn't and today was a breaking point.
Thanks for the rambling. I'm hoping to get things all sorted out and calm down.I didn't tell my manager this, but its getting to the point where I can feel myself getting ready to snapp at the trainees for asking me questions. Not really a good thing to happen.
~*~Dream Dancer~*~
