11:23 a.m. - 03 December 2006
an now what? Vermont?
Hey, it is me, but then again who else would be writing in this on-line diary?
Right now I'm at the laundry mat working on homework while my clothes finish drying. This also kills sometime before my mom comes into town. I have all my papers done now (Thank goodness!) so I can spend the next two weeks studying for Orangic Chemistry. I can't wait!
So I heard some sad news this week. I will not be going back to Disney in January. I'm sad that I'll not be going but then again I was also applying for a job with only 4 openings. I knew that going into the interview and application process. Right now I don't know what I'm going to do. A lot of it depends on chemistry. If I pass the class, and that is a pretty big IF, I might move to the Seattle area and volunteer at one of the local zoos. If I have to take chemistry again, I'll stay around here and working some place other then Arby's.
Next Saturday I'm suppose to be graduating, or at least walking. It does not feel like I've accomplished anything. I don't think I'm qualified for anything and I don't really have a passion for anything, that driving force to become something more.
This may all be talk because once I'm done with school, that's it. There is nothing controlling my life and getting me up in the morning. Let me try that again. Since the age of 5 when I started this whole road of education, M-F has been divoted to school. You get all the way through high school and then are suppose to choose a place of higher learning and a degree that will give you skills to compet with the rest of the world.
Anyway...in short I have no freaking clue what I'm going to be doing after December. I'm secreatly holding out that I'll be a fall back person to fill an empty spot as an Education Presenter (again) but I was not even interviewed for the role so I'm not holding my breath.
I've been thinking about moving to Vermont again. I don't know why. I think because I've never been there and don't know anything about the place. I don't even know what people do in Vermont. Random thinking.
So now you know where I'm at. Sitting in a laundry mat trying to put the rest of my life together. That is pretty sad.
~*~Dream Dancer~*~
