12:10 a.m. - 13 July 2007
life is no better then last entry
Ugh...it has been a long day and long summer.
So I've been driving to/from Arby's all summer, occasionally closing which means very long days. August 31st can't come soon enough and then I will be done with that job forever!
However that leaves me with the next question of...Now what?
I suppose to be going to Texas in September but I'm really not wanting to. The pay is a big issue and concern for me. But I can't turn the job down until I get something else, but nothing else has turned up.
And there is the issue that I dont' have a lot of money saved up to move any where right now and that is adding to my stree load.
Finally, the last of my firends is moving away and I may never see her again. I don't want to face this fact yet so I'm pretending to ignor it, but by August first, she will be in Boise with everyone else I know. I guess I should be greatful that we were able to see one last summer movie together but it was with a meshed group of her friends and people I work with so I don't think that counts.
I don't think I'm ready for things to change. It is nice to know there is no change but I know it is a part of life.
It is sad to think that I had all of these great plans for my life and I don't see my anywhere to them, especailly career wise.
Realistically, I can't go to vet school even though I would still like to. My second-best choice is not panning out so well either right now and with my deadline for work coming up, I'm starting to panic. I also don't want to cave in and head back to school for a teaching certificate either.
So that is where I'm at. I hate where I'm at and I'm maddly jelous of my brother who has a nice paying job, nice things and just bought his first house.
Where am I? Working a dead-end job for nothing without benifits or any kind, living with my parents and soon-to-be jobless in a month and a half!
Yes, this is great for someone who's worked their ass off for the last several years working on a college degree. ARG!!
I'm going to bed now.
~*~dream dancer~*~
