5:50 p.m. - 20 January 2009
Life is on Park
It has been one of those days. I've been spending the last several weeks job hunting and filling out applications. The news does not help. It is terrible having a dreaming, and not being able to reach it. Or having to change pans, again. I don't want to change my plans and 'settle' what is pratical.
In short, I pretty much hate my life. Nothing drastic mind you, just I did not think I would be this old, and still playing the 'what do I want to do when I grow up' game.
In my perfect world, I would be finishing my last year of Veterinary school (and still job hunting ~_^..the irony). Now, I'm out of school with a worthless degress, no training to take anywhere and stuck in Florida. I don't think I'm ment to be here in Florida, but I certainly can't afford to move back to Idaho. What do I do?
My options: wait around and pray something opens up that I can use. Go back to school for something...but what? Wake up to the real world and find a real job.
I know this much: I'm not happy with where I am in life. That is the part that scares me. I've always been afraid of being alone, or ignored, but I think that is actually happening and I can't stop it.
Tomorrow I have a meeting with my boss, that I requested. So I need to get my thoughts together for that and not over react about decisions she had no control over, others did. I do know that if I don't speak up at this meeting, I'm going to stay in park mode and never move forward. I just hope something productive comes of it.
~*~Dream Dancer~*~
