9:44 p.m. - 20 June 2009
What to do now?
It has been a while. A lot has changed since my last entry that I can say for sure.
Back in March, by brother called from Idaho at 1:30 AM/4:30 Florida time, to let me know that he was engaged. That is great for him.
Two weeks ago, my best friend had her first child.
Last week I had my first major case of real home sickness. It has been a joyful few weeks for me.
Did I mention I was interviewed for a job in Washington state and was under qualified, but I'm over qualified for the jobs I want here at Disney? Go figure.
In three weeks' time I would have been in Flordia for a total of one year. Wow. That is pretty amazing considering. I'm having a hard time justifying the move. Did I move for the right reasons and if so, when will I know? I can't keep working part-time, non-paying jobs for the rest of my life but it sure seems like that.
It also feels like everyone I know around me has moved forward with their life and I'm still in one spot. Where did things get so messed up for me??
I was counting in my head and if I had followed my first plan, I should have graduated from Veterinary School this year. If that had happened, I could justify the job searching because I would be a new graduate. Now I'm just nobody not going anywhere.
Work was kind of let down today as well. Saturdays and Sundays are pretty fun because the atmospher is so much more relaxed! Well, our coordinator was in today and that threw everyone off. No one from the other teams stopped by to say hi, and all of us were very cranky. As soon as she left, the mood changed! Like Magic!
No one has been able to figure out why that is. Is it the coordinators personality, or is it something that we percive? What is it?? I don't know.
It has been a rough few weeks and I'm tired of fighting. I just want something to go right for me just once! I don't think I've just given up chasing dreams. I have a 'to do list' that I'm slowly working my way down. I don't know if it will actually help in the long run. I can only hope.
Time for bed and a chance to clear my head some more.
